Dear Ones,
I am approaching the one year mark of being here with my Mother. Not one aspect of what I imagined this time would be about has been remotely true. It reminds me of childbirth. You do it with only a faint understanding of what it means to carry and deliver a baby but the Universal compelling call to birth overrides every reality or fear, since if any woman knew in advance how painful the process can be we might just reconsider. It seems as if this principle works for each of us when change and growth are necessary but we need a catalyst. My mother dying was an urgent compelling call that I instinctually answered and then attached my own expectations and assumptions to. But, when the reality set in as the REAL nature of the decision to be here became evident, I found myself standing in territory that I could not have expected nor imagined. I think this is what it really means to move in the Flow of life.
So, my mother nearly died three times and then came back stronger than ever. And then a critical experience with my daughter’s health, who is now so much better and building her life differently. As a result of these two loved ones facing life and death issues, I faced every buried demon from my past, faced every fear I avoided in my life and saw more of my shadow self than I knew existed. In short, I have become a different person. My imagined time here to HELP my mother was nothing of the sort. My mother called me home to myself and to birth my own truth and lay to rest the old, manufactured, fear based self I had been carrying with me most of my life. What a transformation of death and birth but nothing that could have been expected.
My mother Betty is now in Assisted Living and more joyful and alive than I have seen her in my entire life. She has a ministry there since she is the most outgoing and healthy one present. She cares for so many and brings light into their lives after living her own life in so much darkness of the heart. I am astonished. The place she lives has people dying all the time. It keeps my mother out of her denial and has created an appreciation for the time she has left to live. (Which could be forever the rate she is going.)
And in the process of her coming alive and not dying, so have I. What I have offered her here, living in her life with her, is not nearly as vast as what my mother gave me by nearly dying and calling me home. Each time I thought to leave and possibly escape the pain of transformation I was in, she nearly died again and I stayed longer to move further into my own transformation until I feel I am finished for the time being. Energy lighted and changes, doors began to open, inspiration returned.
Another gift came from my time here. Matthew who came to help for the summer has stayed on since his experience has been identical to mine. We have both been Waking UP in Oklahoma and could say volumes about why this is true. In the process we wiped clean so many aspects of our ten year relationship and built a new one filled with independence and love, partnering and personal quest, togetherness and detachment. We are always a work in progress, but our time here with one another has landed us in a space of creative relationship and loving kindness that was yet another unexpected product of a choice to move to the Prairie.
Yet, Shawnee Oklahoma has been physically and socially a very empty place for us. A few months ago we were encourage to “get out of Dodge” and visit Tulsa Oklahoma which had a Whole Foods Market we were craving and the largest Unitarian Church in the United States. Sixteen- hundred diverse and colorful members. I had not set foot into a church for nearly 30 years, so this was quite a departure for me. Tulsa having been settled and created by New Yorkers, Bostonians and having an East Coast mentality, as well as being a city with more Art Deco Architecture in the US, surprised us and the church, well the only thing I can say is an Arc filled with loving, open, mindful, spiritual and alive people. So after traveling there twice a week for some time we have decided to move there at the end of January. To try out what we imagine being another transformative experience while continuing to be open to wherever the Flow takes us. What an amazing time.
And I am so aware that these changes for me, for my life, for my mother and friends are embedded in the Mayan Calendar’s Sixth Day that began in November. I am including below a short description of the energy for this next year that we all will be challenged by and enfolded in.
So, I will continue to allow my Blog, www.theheartspace.wordpress.com and www.mayachristobel.wordpress.com (devoted to channeled material), to flow even if not focused on my time with my Mother and hope it will illuminate the transformative time we are all in, by sharing with you my own journey. I cannot thank each of you enough for all you have done in the support of me and of my family and send you love and blessings. My new phone and address is below as well as new website.
Thank you,
Maya
THE SIXTH DAY IN SHORT
The Sixth Day (2009) we return to a period of “Enlightenment.” This is the time of flowers for the plant. For you personally, it was adolescence. In human history this was the creation of the first tools, the first attempts at agriculture and constructed shelter, the Renaissance and, most recently, the Flower Children Movement of the 60’s. The Sixth Night (2110), one last period of Dark in the cycle follows. In the plant’s life the flowers wilt and die setting the stage for fruit development or of seedpods that will dry. This is what happened to the Maya civilization right on queue. Throughout human history there have been conflicts and revolts during this period, the most recent of these having been the Viet Nam War.
Now the Sixth Day of the Galactic Underworld begins [November 12, 2008] with Yohualticitl, the goddess of birth. This period is the renaissance of each cycle and this time lasts until November 2009. It is the time in which the flower blossoms. Look with in to propagate your flower. Grow spiritually and remain centered. Stay true to yourself, stay connected to community and the environment. Practice reciprocity and random acts of kindness for balance and connection.
This is all very representative of our nation’s events over the past decade. So this ancient knowledge is very relevant to us today. During this transition, things may very well become even more chaotic, before they improve. However remember to keep focused the big picture and do your best to spread and maintain the positive energy that the world needs so greatly right now.
The last Sixth “Day” was the time of Beatniks, Flower Children, mass spiritual transformation, orbital satellites and global communication systems or distilled down to its essence, profound change.
The Sixth “Day” of the last cycle was the beginning of the European Renaissance.
